When I had returned from the n’anga’s place, I said, “Now, what shall I do?” And then I realized, “What might work is for me to do handiwork.” Then I started making mbira, although they had no buyers, and putting them in the house. Making mbira, no buyers, putting them in the house. Sometimes someone would come along and buy just one, purchasing it on credit for five dollars. A debt of five dollars.
So things were troubling me and I said, “What is going on? I have become someone who has fallen upon extremely hard times. Here none of my children are working. I am not working. All of us are just sitting around, and everyone is expecting something from me.”
So we persevered until I went to Guruve, where the ancestors are. When I arrived they said to me, “You are saying that the work you are doing is worthless work.” I said, “Oh, it is worthless. It doesn’t pay me anything.” They said, “You shall see its value.” I said, “I shall see its value? I am accomplishing nothing. I am making no money. Five dollars! My children need to eat. Can they spend a whole week eating that five dollars?” They said, “You will find it valuable in time to come.”
After they said that, I came here. Then I went to the home of an older woman in Old Highfields. And when I arrived there, I consulted another mudzimu spirit named Seke. The spirit said, “I am unable to interpret your situation.” I said, “Why?” The ancestral spirit said, “I see nothing. Once I begin to see, everything goes dark. I begin to see, and everything goes dark.” Then the spirit said, “The spirit that is upon you is very strong. It requires a spirit equal to it.”
Then a njuzu water spirit came and possessed the same medium, and that spirit was able to explain. It said, “You must have a feast, a party.” Now, I said, “Where will we find the money for that? We don’t have any money.” The spirit said, “Just do whatever you can, no matter how small.” And then I made a mbira, and it was purchased, and we did that. The children helped me. Irene was working with the National Dance Company, and she was now helping us.
So only two weeks after we had done that, Erica Azim arrived. She came with a sewing machine. She said, “I brought you a sewing machine.” We said, “A sewing machine?” She said, “Yes.” Because she had taken some of my mbira and sold them. Then she came with the money for them, and with the machine. I said, “This is a wonderful machine!” And I said, “So what I am doing really is valuable.”